Eyes so heavy..

I am so tired & my eyes so heavy trying to work with a body thats just so weak.
Every reaction so slow to every action
everything so cloudy in my mind, unable to think, to concentrate..Could this be my insanity?

I only want this day to end, so close to breaking point. Who said I even wanted to open my eyes to start this crazy day?Sleep is where my sanity lays. Where I find my peace of mind, my clear view. There is no sadness,no hurt or pain.It is only me playing with the shadows of my mind.

I feel as though I have been losing myself, every day fading that much away.
My eyes so heavy,my mind so lazy..I think im going crazy..maybe if i could just close my eyes for a second paradise is what ill find where my heart and sould can be at rest..

Before you walk away and close that Door

This came out more so as a song than a poem.

Before you let me go...
I need to let you know...

I believe that you should think again...
Because I'm the one who's always been...

Right here for you...
The one to see you through...

I was there each time
you never knew...
just what it was
that you should do...

Still...

There I stood...

right beside you...

So...
Before you let me go...
I need to let you know...

I believe that you should think again...
Because I'm the one who let you in...
Over...
and over...
and over... again

And your silence now speaks loud and true
So much more
than a thousand words
could ever do...

And even when you didn't know
Exactly where your heart would go...
I cried with you...
And I tried with you;
And there were times I even lied for you...

And I always waited patiently
for the one thing in this life
that I knew I'd never get

A chance to finally call you mine,
Some way to leave the past behind...
But maybe it's not over yet...

So...

Before you let me go...
I need to let you know...

I believe that you should think again...
Because I'm the one who's always been...

Right here for you...
The one to see you through...

I was there each time
you never knew...
just what it was
that you should do...

Still...

There I stood...

right beside you...

So...
Before you let me go...
I need to let you know...

I believe that you should think again...
Because I'm the one who let you in...
Over...
and over...
and over... again

And your silence now speaks loud and true
So much more
than a thousand words
could ever do...

I want you to want me the way that I want you.

I want you to think about me as many times as I think about you.
I want you to miss me just as much as I miss you.
I want you to have a burning desire to be with me just as much as I want that with you.

I want you to kiss me and feel the way I do when I kiss you.
I want you to never have the desire to be without me just as much as I wish to never be without you.

I want you to have no desire to go to bed without me just as much as I would hate to go to bed without you.
I want you to not be able to sleep when Im late, or havent spoken to you just as much as I am not able to when you not close to me.
I want you to want my comfort,affection and love just as much as I want yours.

I want you to never have the desire to love another the way you love me...I wish you knew just how much I want to be with you,I hope some day you will feel this way for me.....Or maybe one day you will wake up missing me...

It feels as though im losing my best friend...

Dear Diary,

Today I feel as though I am lsing my best friend,The best thing thats has ever happened to me! I honestly cannot imagine my life without him, cant bear the thought of falling asleep alone again,having to wake up with no comforting arms around me.

I made the suggestion but wanted him to fight for me and say No, he cant live without me. he says he cant imagine his life without me, although he needs the time to be alone. He says absence makes the heart grow fonder, he said he feels as though he would appreciate me so much more...But how can you love a person and not want to near them as much?

Maybe not living together will do just what he hopes it will but maybe it will do just what I fear it will....How do I agree and not show my dissapointment,how do I prepare myself for the worst should it ever come to that? I feel as though this all is so unfair that I walked into this relationship knowing what I wanted and he went in knowing my thoughts and feelings only to crush them and break my heart cause he had no time to heal and be alone...Its me who is suffering now...


This will be the test, the final test....The final give it a go!!

Love finds the way:)

We so often vowel our undying love, we promise to always love that person through the good and the bad. But I ask myself today; just how much do we follow through on our word? As a result, romantic hopes are often replaced with disappointment in the home, but it doesn’t have to stay that way.

We tend to eventually get bored in our relationships, we distance ourselves from our partners and the magic that once had brought two separate souls to unite has now disappeared and two people who are no willing to work at keeping that magic walk two separate roads once again.
Why is it so hard to put our faith in that person, why is it so hard to trust, why are you at the point of giving up when there is always hope and even more so when there is still love? If you are not married as of yet and you are going through this stage, ask yourselves how you will make it through the hard times in marriage. You are with a person for the rest of your life, you going to see them day in and day out, you going to get so mad at one another some days, you going to see one another at their worst stages, your sex life will not always be great and there may not always be adventures but what counts is that before you even get married or even if you are already that you remember what magic brought you together, what it felt like, remind yourself just how good it felt to be with or close to that person remember how hard it was to be apart. You need to keep the magic flowing, do small things, little gestures that have meaning and that will have a bigger impact on your loved ones ear and soul.

You need to remember that it’s not always about getting what you feel you deserve but it’s also about giving to your partner what they deserve. Giving them love, supporting them in everything and even at times when you may not think it’s the right thing or waste of money it’s what will at the end of the day make your partner happy, It’s about waking up early to make them breakfast, it’s about listening to them moan when they grumpy, It’s about letting them be who they are, they need to be comfortable with who thy are in front of you. This is a give and take-what you give is what you should get but never really expecting it-Balance is the key.

There is a reason you are at this point, but don’t give up-do what it takes to make it right. Learn to communicate and accept that relationships are not all hunky dory, or that easy but its about taking good with the bad and still making good come of it all because at the end of the day when you think of this all you will realise you cannot live without this person and you love them as they are for who they are as they accept you for who you are and as you are. Let go of any hurt that you may have from this relationship as well as previous relationships and move forward, together united as you will only realise what you had one its gone and that often too late. Don’t put your love in the same box as previous relationships, even if at times there may be something may influence you to feel that way, Every person is unique, every love is unique and every relationship is unique. Don’t always look at the bad but look at the good and create more to appreciate and you will mostly find that there is already so much to appreciate and that person who may make you angry at times and absolutely happy the next is really your everything and you are then incomplete without them, an empty shell so fragile and easily broken.

Love is what gives us strength, it’s what gives us the will.. It what in fact keeps you going!

Taking the time to remind those that they too are loved

We get so caught up in our everyday life. We get home and turn the Television or the Radio on, and barely speak a breath a word to the people we may live with, Our families or even our partners.
We distance ourselves from those who truly mean something to us &, who truly care as we think that they do understand just how our day went or the stresses we have been through during the course of our day never reminding ourselves that they too in fact have been through it too during the course of their own day, never remembering that they may need to talk about it instead we become self-centred and focus only on ourselves.
It is so sad really that we lose all communication with those who we love, we end up pushing them further and further away from us never remembering that they care enough to listen, that even just sitting there hearing one another complain our the day we had and even talking about the good things enable us to let a lot off our hearts, enables us to laugh about it all and most importantly just spend that time with that special person and just remind them that they too have something to smile about and have person who listens to them whether it may be good or bad.
Take the time in your evenings, In your morning or whenever you may have a free moment and sent a short email, short text msg or even a quick call to tell that special someone that they are loved and wanted in more ways than one everyday forever more.

Intro

My hands were shaking; my heart was racing with every step I took closer to that door, every step closer to you. It had been so long since I had to razzle and dazzle my way into a person’s heart. Was I still even capable of capturing ones heart and soul? Was I still pretty enough to make you stare with awe? All these thoughts clouding my mind & all these feelings filling my anxious heart, every step I take closer to you.

You pulled me close and I felt the magic, your magic sweep me away to a place where we danced on the moon and played amongst the stars as heavens music played in our souls and two became one…

Its the way you do what you do, that I am so inlove with you

It’s the amazing feeling of waking up in your arms; it’s the magical feeling that fills me when you look at me so deeply that my soul is bare. It’s falling asleep with the warmth of your breath on the nape of my neck; it’s your embrace as we lay naked while the world outside no longer exists, its only you and I that fill the space.
It’s the way you pull me close in the winter breeze, it’s the way you pick me up when I have forgotten how to get up after a fall, it’s the way your love shields me from any harm in my way, it’s the way you taught me to dance in the rain and not just wait for the storm to pass, It’s the way you can still love me and still be in awe of me on my ugliest of days and remind me that its not always about the physical but the inner beauty that counts.
In your eyes I know I’ll find the light to light my way, when my world is going crazy you can turn it all around, and when I need a friend your always on my side, Giving me faith . For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on, I turn to you. It’s the way you do this all that I will go where you go, it’s because of this that I am able to love you the way that I do, to feel so deeply and strip bare for all of me to reveal before you.

Getting Over Infidelity - One womens challenge yesterday & anothers reality tomorrow...

It was a feeling of destruction within my soul,mind and heart...My body was in shock and cold shivers made me clench my jaw with intense nausea. I was unable to think of anything else. He was not making love to me last night, he was in her arms,in her bed feeling her body warmth and whispering sweet words to her.

Why was it not me? what is wrong with me? Am I that ugly that he would not want me- Oh shit...I'm the rebound.

A rainy Tuesday morning.I woke up not feeling myself.I did not sleep well at all the night before, Something was wrong or something was about to happen. I sat up in my bed,puffed my pillows up and lay my head against the pillow leaning on my wall. I didn't want to be alone this morning, this was the perfect day for bed, and cuddling and just being close to that special person. I picked up my phone to check for any messages from him, but there was nothing waiting for me to put that dazzling smile on my face. We had only been dating for a month but there was already love within my heart as well as a fire burning passion and desire for him. I knew he was on training that day so maybe he was up late studying and was up early again to prepare for exams for the day....Ill try phone in a half hours time just to say hi, hear his voice and put my mind at ease to remind myself there was nothing wrong, there was nothing to be afraid of..Its time to fully give my heart.

Got out the shower,and sat on my bed in my towel and stared out the window..All I could think about what how happy I had been the past few weeks,It was almost too good to be true. But this was it and I had found happiness, it felt so right in his arms how could this ever be wrong? I picked up my phone 08:00 and still no message from my Handsome. "Let me phone him quickly" It must have rang for what had seemed as though it were a life time. I then put down with a terribly ill feeling right down to my Core again. So I then decided to call his House Mate to see how he was last night. After a few rings his House Mate answered his phone.Not only was he his House Mate but they had been friends since they were young boys so they knew everything about one another, But they were also always in competition with one another for everything-mostly Ladies..

He informed me that my man had not slept at home last night, his friend had thought he had slept by me..But he didnt...

I sat there asking in my towel,hardly able to catch my breath and just breath.
I dialled his moms Number, she answered and I asked if he was there and if he had stayed over? There was a pause and she said "no my child, I have not even spoken to him in days. why whats wrong?" after telling her the story, I asked her for his ex fiances number.. More shock,more shivers and more heart ache consumed me.

With shaking hands I dialld the last number I ever wanted to dial..A very tired voice answers the phone. After a long chat about the night before that she had infact spent with him while I slept alone I learnt that he planned to leave me and start off fresh with her again. How could he do this to me? I told him that I had nothing left in me to give when I had met him as I had been so badly hurt so many times before,why did I give him an opportunity to build me up only to break me down? I had told him that If he started something with me there would be no going back and that he should be more than 100% sure that I am who he wants to be with me..Oh well guess that meant nothing to him.I was the fool again,I should have just stayed single,Life ws much less complicated.I would much prefer to be lonely and single than lonely,heart broken and single!!

I tried to call him again, still no answer.I started sending text message after text message telling him that he has no Balls, he is liar and a coward! Still no response from him!It Hurts so bad!I got dressed the best I could in my state,tried to stop crying put myself together as much as what I could and picked up my handbag to walk out that front door and wait for him at his house."Im at your house now, I want the truth and nothing more, you owe me that at least!" That was the last message I sent to his phone as I lay there on his bed staring out to the street wondering why I even came when I knew what the actual truth was!? We were in fact only together for a month so whats so making it so dam had to not care and just let things be? Why am I only doing this to myself? If he really cared he would not be acting the way he is,he would be here with me and would not have even gone to see her,after all they had been apart now for three months.

I tried to sleep, walked up and down the hallway of the house, tried to listen to music while I waited and waited for his return. Eventually his mother calls me telling me to please not give up on him and to fight for him, I sit there after I have put the phone down and just burst into tears that I had been trying so hard to hold back so that he would not see my weakness that I have for him.. My cryptonite!

He walks in the door,I stand up and somehow everything just felt like it was going to be ok,he held me so close in his arms as his tears ran down my own face.All he could say was "I am so sorry" and All I could say was "Its ok, we all make mistakes and we all have a weakness" After a few hours talking I told him that I love him and can forgive him but he must really mean it.I watched him cry for hours as he lay next to me " How can you even bear to touch me or even be close to me after what I have done?" my reply simply was " when you truely love someone you can see past that all, see them for who they can be as a better person"

As time went by there was always interference from his ex, there were days I still wondered if I really wanted to be with him, I would check his phone, check his E-Mails, check his facebook and I hate to admit it but even created a fake facebook account to keep track of what his ex had to say and do. Everytime they spoke she would update her status about him...I was an emotional wreck, I was so insecure, lost all self confidence and sure as hell lost all self respect to be lowering my morals to do this all to yself and living this way!Its Something I said Ill never do, something I said Id leave a man for, Yet for some reason I was just not able to leave him. Fact is as time went by I saw he had stopped all contact with her, he tried more hard to help me get past it all.We eventually broke up due to my insecurities and he also was not sure that he wanted me. But as I started packing my things to leave he started crying and asked me to stay, he told me he was wrong and confused and could not bear life without me. Again I was unable to leave, I quietly wondered to myself If I was mad to stay,stupid to love him and beleive him and even wondered if this is how my life would always be...One big emotional rollercoater...Yet as I lay there wondering this well he slept with his back to me even after having asked me stay I still convinced myself Id be a fool to leave him.

Its no been almost a year since then,There is no doubt I am inlove.
He has no wondering eye, no more dating site accounts, no communiaction with his ex and spend all his free time with me.I AM NOW HIS FIRST AND ONLY PRIORITY!I am still working and trying to get over everything that happened but truth is you will never truelly get over it, you will never fully heal but I can say that Id never give up on him that easily, or walk away that easily,I love him and if he did not love me he would not be with me. A relationship is something that you never stop working on, you need to find ways to keep doing things together and have fun doing it all and keep it interesting.Its also a two way street so remember what you put in, you should get out:)I dont know if we will alwys be together,But Im taking that risk for many reason some right and yes maybe even some wrong but its worth it, should it not work I know that I had given my all and everything to make it work and Ill never look back...who knows he may just be that special man I spend the rest of my free time with:)

We are not all perfect-But in the eyes of loved ones we are:)

Ok, so we were the perfect creations made by God in His image, Or are we still the perfect creations? In image yes,But unfortunately there are many flaws within ourselves,& in our personalities....

I have lived my life by ways that are not always seen as right,I made decisions that I am not very proud of. I claim to be a christian, a follower of God but how is this true when I have strayed so far from him and the life he wanted for me.I never followed his 10 Commandments, I followed the way of the world.

I have stolen, I have lied, I have cheated and I have done so much more bad than what I would like to admit to. Although How am I to move forward if I am not able to admit this terrible truth to myself, and who could love a person like me who has done this much wrong not just once but time and time again.

I have hurt so many people,they gave me their trust, thier love, their devotion and I took full advantage of this and yet somehow even with all my flaws these people still love me,and have still gievn me another opportunity to change and be a better person? Well at least I havent killed a person but doing what I have done killed many souls in some way or another by my flaws within and my decision making to do wrong and not what God wanted.

I cannot turn back the hands of time, and I do not wish to either as much as I regret some things I have still learnt from them and Now everyday I work to be a better person. It has not been easy but I am happy today that I am TRYING, not just for one day but everyday that I will wake up for the rest of my life I am going to have to try.I made a promise to God as well as to myself and those people who I ahve hurt have given me another opportunity..I cannot go back on my word now,I cannot turn back when I have come this far:)

There is always a reason why a person such as myself finds reasons to lie, why we will steal, why we will cheat,why we will kill..You cannot just blame your parents for thier bad parenting skills as you were the rebellious child who gave them such up hill to be apart of that bad group of friends at school who got you have your first taste of brandy with the first light of that ciggerette to go accompany that glass of brandy,to be aprt of that group who lead you to think that sex before marriage was cool and did not remind you that its the greatest gift you could give your husband or wife one day, the same group of people who kept you out all night while your parents were at home worrying about you....No this was not your parents fault for not having been more strict on you growing up, its not this bad group of friends who you DECIDED to associate with fault for you having made these mistakes but this was by YOUR VERY OWN DECISIONS,BY YOUR OWN DESIRE to not do what you knew was right it was YOUR OWN FREE WILL.

So many people of all societies always have smething or someone to blame for the way thier lives work out. Yes there are both Television & Film Productions,Games & Music that have a huge influence over out Lives But tuth is God left us with the Bible,an understanding of what our folks teach us to know right from wrong.He gave us FREE WILL to decide if we will watch those Television & Film productions that promote sex with whoever,free will to decide if we want to go to that party & drink Brandy with a ciggerette, free will to decide if we will play a game that promotes killing and stealing-Thats it people its our own free will, our own lives, our own minds, our own strengths overs weakness or weakness over strength. You can be that better person, you can have that better life..you can be who you want to be but before you go out and take that first wrong step think about your loved ones, your future and everything that would be at stake.For every Action there will always be a reaction, and remembr that free will is yours but everything is at a cost good or bad but good always out ways the bad:)

Thank you to all thos people who have stood by me even after everything I have Put you through, for having been like God and having forgiven me.It was your love and Gods that saved me.

A new family Addition Rover the Jack Russell AKA THE CUTE KID!

Ok so getting a pet is like adopting a kid.
Its poops & you clean it up,
It pukes & u clean it up,
They play on your emotions and you feel sorry and give them whatever they may want,
you pay for the food and they gobble it all up,
you forget what a sound nights sleep is like as you worry about squishing the poor thing to death when they sleep between you and your partner.. Gosh! I dont think we knew what were in for!?

Fortuni and I spent a good 6 Months debating whether we ought to get a puppy or if we should not? Can we afford this or can we not? Should we get two or only one pet? What breed are we to decide on and AGREE on? What is their nature? Will that specific breed be easy to train or not? Will we be able to find a house or complex which permits animals?

Well we eventually agreed on the Jack Russell, why? well cause it seems not only animals and babies play on emotions, men do too :)so we agreed on that specific breed of Dog.
We had visited a few pet shops, And like a woman I also tried to play the emotional game with Fortuni. I would give him the sad puppy face when I saw a dog I wanted but somehow it just did not work and we would leave with no cute doggy in the window..

But one Sunday morning while visiting my mother inlaw we went to the mall, we were told the previous day by Fortunis sister that there were a few breeds there. Now its month end and we had a lot to pay this month and of course we had like so may other times agreed on a budget for the next month. In the back round I could hear all the little barks and cries for someone, anyone to pick one and take one of them cute little doggies home, and with a fast paced walk I marched to the Pet Shop with such high hopes in my heart already, SCREW THE MONTHLY BUDGET,SCREW WHAT WE AGREED ON IM NOT LEAVING HERE TODAY WITHOUT MY DOGGIE!

It was him, I knew it was him I wanted . The small Jack Russell all alone in one little cage, he was so small that he was able to fit in the palm of my hand. He looked at me with such fire, strength and courage as well as the little puppy look that played on my heart & said TAKE ME HOME,TAKE ME,YES ME! Before Fortuni had even reached the pet shop I was already holding this small bundle of energy in my hand, he started to crawl up my neck and kiss me every where...oh ho my heart started to pound with excitement and happiness ,there was no way he would go home to anyone else but with me and everything he wanted would be his!

By the time Fortuni had eventually found me I was already starting with my puppy begging look and emotional mind control trick :) I said, But please Babe he is only R350.00, he is all by himself in this cage, he is small he wont get in you way and he is a Jack Russell just like you wanted...Here babe, just hold him, look how much Energy he has-aaah Babe he is perfect & I want him, we are not leaving here until I know he is coming ho9me with me...oops I mean us;)

But little did I know I was not the only one with high hopes that day, I was not the only one who had my eye and heart set a bundle of happiness to take home....Why is he looking at me that way? Why wont he budge? What do I say next to land this sale I though to myself..

No! I dont like him! He looks like a Rat! what! How could he possibly say this about this new little man in my life who had captured my heart? Did he not hear the good sale pitch I had made earlier? Well we are taking him, and you are not going to say no to me okay, I said aloud to him.
You will listen to me and do as I say as I have already agreed to the breed of Dog you wanted and he is only R350.00 and that will fit in with the money budget for the month(Dam I hope Im getting through to him) But aaaah no, truth was he was still staring at me with that blank look on his face like not one word I just said was registered. Babe put that Rat back in its cage, we not getting him!! I have found a pure Jack Russell, a healthier and bigger Jack Russell with muscle in his legs, come on babe look how cute he is-But all is saw was this lifeless, gay male dog who was been humped by some other dog in his cage!

Babe, he is just sitting there been humped and he wont defend himself, he is gay, a faggot! but babe look at him, he is so cute...come on just hold him for a bit.No!I dont like him and I dont want him,I want my small puppy who is all on his own and who has more fire in him! But babe I wanna breed with pure jack Russells and healthy Jack Russells not that Rat-OOOOH ! And you think that you going to breed dogs with a male who only like males humping him-No!

The lady who was also admiring the animals told fortuni to always listen to the female as we never lose the fight, so he might as well give up his fight now-I grinned with such a sarcastic, cheecky, naughty smile like a kid who just played mom up against dad :)
well this went on for two hours, I was eventually crying, begging and pleading that we get both then. Then I told him his Dog was R750.00 and it was not in our budget so we could not get him and the R350.00 Rat will be the best choice for oblivious reasons, Dah!

After man hours of all that we left with only his Gay, Faggot dog!
I didn’t want to admit it to Fortuni that I liked the fag that was actually so dam cute, cause then male ego would build up and he would win the next battle again-which there was not way in hell he was going to, next time he is my bitch and Ill be the dominant one humping him! ha!
We sat in the car, and he immediately fell asleep in my lap, truth is I had forgotten about the small puppy who was full of life as I watched him dream while my heart had been stolen. Fortuni knew my heart was taken by the way I looked at this gay doggi, but it was ok if he was gay cause then I could dress Him up ;) and he would love me more than his dad! But still Fortuni smiled with a look of pride after getting his way-who cared! Not me, my focus was on m new found love, our Rover :)

Truth is, he is hard work. He sleeps in our bed, keeps us up all night, and we wake up to stepping in poo. But hey its ok cause this is what we wanted for so long and he has brought so much happiness to our home just like a Baby would-Our Baby Rover :)

Finding Mr Right

There is no better feeling in the world than knowing the person you love loves you just as much....

I am the kind of girl who is inlove with love, the kind of girl who dreams of finding "Mr Right" and having the happily ever after.... Im the girl who watches movies like "A Walk To Remember" and I cry my eyes out and wish to be romantically swept off my feet as prince charming had done in all my very fav FAIRYTALES....

I had officially had enough, enough of men lying to me, minipulating me to beleive just what they wanted me to until they got what they wanted and I would never hear from them again...
Truth is after all that my heart was broken,and I had nothing more left inside of me to give,not that I even wanted to give anything more than what I had after all that. I had decided to just forget the my fairytale happily ever after and be the girl who now played the game better than any male could...they all were at my disposal as I wished when I wished..


It gave me a rush, a sense of power every time they came running back like little puppies begging for more. Now there was no way that I would cry over a man again,I would never have to run after a man again. There were never nights that I felt lonely, never a night that I went out and had to pay for my drinks, never a night when I had to find my own way home....they were my puppets and I was their puppetier.
Sex & the City was my lifestyle & it was great:)
The parties were glamorous, the all paid for holiday trips were everything a could could wish for and the sex...mmm well the sex was good,but I was never satisfied...On a deeper level,on a more emotional level I wanted more,I still wanted to be that little girl whowished for true love and my own happily ever after.

With much thought, with much soul searching and with an wanting to know God more I changed my ways and there after spent my time at home with my family.I stopped going out clubbing and drinking,I stopped all contact with old friens who still liv ed the Sex & the City lifestyle and I made a promise to myself that I would marry the man I am initmate with again, but until I would meet him I would be single to make sure that I am the woman a man would want to marry..

Now you may think that this was hard but in actual fact is was not.I am happy I made the decision I had. I also said that my next reltionship would be a honest one from both parties, that I would always work at it regardless of the tough times that sometimes get you down..I decided that I would put my faith and trust in God to prepare me to be the woman that God would want me to be be for the man he had in fact prepared for me.

I met that man in a place I least expected to meet,when I least expected it to happen!
I saw him and I emmediatly knew that he was the man I wanted to get to know.
After a full year of been single I walked up to him with full confidence in myself and informed him that I though he was gorgeous.Ill never forget that Look on his face, or that smile that made my heart pound ten times faster or the butterflies that had filled me with such excitement!

Afterwards I went back inside to find him staring at me withthe most incredibly gorgeous smile I had ever seen,I got goosebumps all over my body as I got even more excited by this mans attention. As I walked past him, he brush his hand over my waist and gently grabbed me by my waist and again he smiled at me with those magnificent eyes that captured my soul and I found myself bound to him with intense energy-I was a statue that couldtn move and after a few seconds of having been hypnotised by his soul I gently pulled back and asked for him to follow me.

We stepped out side, the summer air was warm but fresh on my heated skin.
I then asked him more about himself.He was reserved yet open enough for me to be let in to study him a bit more. I could feel the energy of his body so close to mine and it made me dizzy with magic-his magic.

We there after exchanged numbers and I we made contact the following day.
We arranged to meet midday. I was waiting for this awkward feeling but truth is when I was walking up to him I was so excited & nervous at the same time.
I sat across the table from him,although all I has desired was to be closer to him.The sun was in my eyes,he smiled at me with his gentle smile and invited me to sit closer to him away from the sunlight.I then knew he felt the same as what I had,and wanted what I had-to be closer.The warmth of his body brought comfort as the chilly air brushed over my skin,we spoke for hours and before we knew it the evening was drawing in.I felt a sadness in my heart as I knew it would be time for the date to be ending anytime soon,But he must have a read my mind as he then asked me to join him for dinner. How could I possible deny his request when all I wanted was to never say Goodbye.

After dinner we stepped outside onto the roof of thee 21 floor building, it over looked the entire city.The Dark night sky was brought to life with the beautiful city lights below and all around. He pulled me closer to him, I turned to face him as he drew me even closer with a tighter grip around my body.It was then at that moment I lost all sense of time, all sense of the world around us...I was lost in him and the way he drew me in with his kiss.

It was then when I knew God had sent me the man He prepared me for:)
Ill never stop working at our relationship or fighting for his love, and ill cry a thousand tears for him.All that I am belongs to him and I love him with all that I am .....THERE IS NO BETTER FEELING IN THE WORLD THAN KNOWING THE ONE YOU LOVES LOVES YOU JUST AS MUCH AND ITS WORTH EVERY BIT OF EFFORT:)

And they lived happily ever after -The End