There is no better feeling in the world than knowing the person you love loves you just as much....
I am the kind of girl who is inlove with love, the kind of girl who dreams of finding "Mr Right" and having the happily ever after.... Im the girl who watches movies like "A Walk To Remember" and I cry my eyes out and wish to be romantically swept off my feet as prince charming had done in all my very fav FAIRYTALES....
I had officially had enough, enough of men lying to me, minipulating me to beleive just what they wanted me to until they got what they wanted and I would never hear from them again...
Truth is after all that my heart was broken,and I had nothing more left inside of me to give,not that I even wanted to give anything more than what I had after all that. I had decided to just forget the my fairytale happily ever after and be the girl who now played the game better than any male could...they all were at my disposal as I wished when I wished..
It gave me a rush, a sense of power every time they came running back like little puppies begging for more. Now there was no way that I would cry over a man again,I would never have to run after a man again. There were never nights that I felt lonely, never a night that I went out and had to pay for my drinks, never a night when I had to find my own way home....they were my puppets and I was their puppetier.
Sex & the City was my lifestyle & it was great:)
The parties were glamorous, the all paid for holiday trips were everything a could could wish for and the sex...mmm well the sex was good,but I was never satisfied...On a deeper level,on a more emotional level I wanted more,I still wanted to be that little girl whowished for true love and my own happily ever after.
With much thought, with much soul searching and with an wanting to know God more I changed my ways and there after spent my time at home with my family.I stopped going out clubbing and drinking,I stopped all contact with old friens who still liv ed the Sex & the City lifestyle and I made a promise to myself that I would marry the man I am initmate with again, but until I would meet him I would be single to make sure that I am the woman a man would want to marry..
Now you may think that this was hard but in actual fact is was not.I am happy I made the decision I had. I also said that my next reltionship would be a honest one from both parties, that I would always work at it regardless of the tough times that sometimes get you down..I decided that I would put my faith and trust in God to prepare me to be the woman that God would want me to be be for the man he had in fact prepared for me.
I met that man in a place I least expected to meet,when I least expected it to happen!
I saw him and I emmediatly knew that he was the man I wanted to get to know.
After a full year of been single I walked up to him with full confidence in myself and informed him that I though he was gorgeous.Ill never forget that Look on his face, or that smile that made my heart pound ten times faster or the butterflies that had filled me with such excitement!
Afterwards I went back inside to find him staring at me withthe most incredibly gorgeous smile I had ever seen,I got goosebumps all over my body as I got even more excited by this mans attention. As I walked past him, he brush his hand over my waist and gently grabbed me by my waist and again he smiled at me with those magnificent eyes that captured my soul and I found myself bound to him with intense energy-I was a statue that couldtn move and after a few seconds of having been hypnotised by his soul I gently pulled back and asked for him to follow me.
We stepped out side, the summer air was warm but fresh on my heated skin.
I then asked him more about himself.He was reserved yet open enough for me to be let in to study him a bit more. I could feel the energy of his body so close to mine and it made me dizzy with magic-his magic.
We there after exchanged numbers and I we made contact the following day.
We arranged to meet midday. I was waiting for this awkward feeling but truth is when I was walking up to him I was so excited & nervous at the same time.
I sat across the table from him,although all I has desired was to be closer to him.The sun was in my eyes,he smiled at me with his gentle smile and invited me to sit closer to him away from the sunlight.I then knew he felt the same as what I had,and wanted what I had-to be closer.The warmth of his body brought comfort as the chilly air brushed over my skin,we spoke for hours and before we knew it the evening was drawing in.I felt a sadness in my heart as I knew it would be time for the date to be ending anytime soon,But he must have a read my mind as he then asked me to join him for dinner. How could I possible deny his request when all I wanted was to never say Goodbye.
After dinner we stepped outside onto the roof of thee 21 floor building, it over looked the entire city.The Dark night sky was brought to life with the beautiful city lights below and all around. He pulled me closer to him, I turned to face him as he drew me even closer with a tighter grip around my body.It was then at that moment I lost all sense of time, all sense of the world around us...I was lost in him and the way he drew me in with his kiss.
It was then when I knew God had sent me the man He prepared me for:)
Ill never stop working at our relationship or fighting for his love, and ill cry a thousand tears for him.All that I am belongs to him and I love him with all that I am .....THERE IS NO BETTER FEELING IN THE WORLD THAN KNOWING THE ONE YOU LOVES LOVES YOU JUST AS MUCH AND ITS WORTH EVERY BIT OF EFFORT:)
And they lived happily ever after -The End
