Before you walk away and close that Door

This came out more so as a song than a poem.

Before you let me go...
I need to let you know...

I believe that you should think again...
Because I'm the one who's always been...

Right here for you...
The one to see you through...

I was there each time
you never knew...
just what it was
that you should do...

Still...

There I stood...

right beside you...

So...
Before you let me go...
I need to let you know...

I believe that you should think again...
Because I'm the one who let you in...
Over...
and over...
and over... again

And your silence now speaks loud and true
So much more
than a thousand words
could ever do...

And even when you didn't know
Exactly where your heart would go...
I cried with you...
And I tried with you;
And there were times I even lied for you...

And I always waited patiently
for the one thing in this life
that I knew I'd never get

A chance to finally call you mine,
Some way to leave the past behind...
But maybe it's not over yet...

So...

Before you let me go...
I need to let you know...

I believe that you should think again...
Because I'm the one who's always been...

Right here for you...
The one to see you through...

I was there each time
you never knew...
just what it was
that you should do...

Still...

There I stood...

right beside you...

So...
Before you let me go...
I need to let you know...

I believe that you should think again...
Because I'm the one who let you in...
Over...
and over...
and over... again

And your silence now speaks loud and true
So much more
than a thousand words
could ever do...

I want you to want me the way that I want you.

I want you to think about me as many times as I think about you.
I want you to miss me just as much as I miss you.
I want you to have a burning desire to be with me just as much as I want that with you.

I want you to kiss me and feel the way I do when I kiss you.
I want you to never have the desire to be without me just as much as I wish to never be without you.

I want you to have no desire to go to bed without me just as much as I would hate to go to bed without you.
I want you to not be able to sleep when Im late, or havent spoken to you just as much as I am not able to when you not close to me.
I want you to want my comfort,affection and love just as much as I want yours.

I want you to never have the desire to love another the way you love me...I wish you knew just how much I want to be with you,I hope some day you will feel this way for me.....Or maybe one day you will wake up missing me...

It feels as though im losing my best friend...

Dear Diary,

Today I feel as though I am lsing my best friend,The best thing thats has ever happened to me! I honestly cannot imagine my life without him, cant bear the thought of falling asleep alone again,having to wake up with no comforting arms around me.

I made the suggestion but wanted him to fight for me and say No, he cant live without me. he says he cant imagine his life without me, although he needs the time to be alone. He says absence makes the heart grow fonder, he said he feels as though he would appreciate me so much more...But how can you love a person and not want to near them as much?

Maybe not living together will do just what he hopes it will but maybe it will do just what I fear it will....How do I agree and not show my dissapointment,how do I prepare myself for the worst should it ever come to that? I feel as though this all is so unfair that I walked into this relationship knowing what I wanted and he went in knowing my thoughts and feelings only to crush them and break my heart cause he had no time to heal and be alone...Its me who is suffering now...


This will be the test, the final test....The final give it a go!!